Meaning.
What does that mean? What makes a thing meaningful or meaningless? It is a perceived quality of a thing. Is it objective or subjective? Is it something we apply to a thing or is it something resident to a thing that we react to?
Which is better? A meaningful existence or a meaningless one?
Meaningful of course. Nobody ever committed suicide because their lives just seemed so meaningful.
So this is important. It’s something we should be in control of. And we are.
There is nothing wrong with talking to yourself. It’s listening to yourself that gets you into trouble. We are creating ourselves with the stories we tell ourselves about ourselves. If we don’t do it consciously, we let a mental autopilot take over. As in a a self-driving vehicle, the autopilot does an adequate job under calm, controlled conditions. But when the weather turns bad or an unexpected situation presents itself, the autopilot will lose control (often by overcorrecting) and the actual pilot must assume control.
Letting your mental autopilot (your inner dialogue) run out of control is the source of most psychological problems.
We re-assert control of our lives by taking control of the narrative. We are the authors of, not the characters in our stories. You are where you are because you put yourself there. Or you let your autopilot take you there.
The only thing that stands between you and who you want to be is you.
Your life has as much or as little meaning as you want it to.
Stop listening to yourself.
Start telling yourself.